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happy new year everbody…

TTMM was great. had so much being part of it. but of course i lacked the sleep and also work was crazy it still is… but God will only give us something which we can handle. i’m so glad that my family could make it. at least now they have a picture of what i do. and they were so proud and glad. praise God! and you know God honours those who honours Him right…. guess what… i’m getting my car through finances that i didn’t know i had. finally!!! and i’m moving back to subang… want to be nearer to church…

New year’s was crazy… frist was at elaine’s… laughed so much that joel was sure that my drink was spiked. but that’s me. besides i can’t get over tis private joke that i have with boon wei… gosh she’s so cute. and the when over to jason’s after the bbq for the countdown. it was crazy as usual… a lot of ppl got dunked in the wate. still laughing about it. and then yesterday when to as buffet steamboat and ate sooo much that i’m on a liquid diet today. but apparently i kalah to the rest. but it was good… speaking of which i’m still waiting for sam to go to checkers with me… and yes it’s 2008… for greater miracles and testimonies. 2007 was already great enuf just waiting and being excited for 2008.

i say actskids you say awesome… ACTSKIDS AWESOME!!!! for the past three days i have been on leave as i was part of acts kids holiday program. it was just so fun. it did get to me at times, the tiredness, kids who fought and refused to listen to you, but in the end it was all good. some of them even touched my heart… like chandran and the rest of the kids from rumah shalom who insisted on getting my phone which feel in the monsoon drain. i was really touched at how bad they felt about my phone, they even understood the value of it. and onf the girls who touched my cheek and said that she like me very much, and logan gosh!! ever listened to any of us and who finally made all my tamil come out thanks to the Holy Spirit. i miss those kids already and am looking forward to further initiatives in sowing into those kids’ lives.

after AYA night, been busy with another event. but that was hoever much smaller than the press conference that we had. anyways… now it’s mostly pitching for interviews and monitoring coverage.

besides that… i’ve volunteered for the Acts Kids Holiday Programme. FUN!!! can’t wait… found out that i’llbe helping with May Ling with the games and helping with singing. only thing is that i was told by sarah that i needed to brush up my tamil. BRUSH UP???!!! i no peanuts… shucks!! don’t know how i’m going to do it but i suppose believeing in the verse i can do all things through Christ that strengthens me. Amen!! but can’t wait…

we spoke on the phone… we actually did.. and it was quite a long conversation talking about stuff i never knew 2 people who hardly knew each other would. we were suppose to meet up as well but then he’s busy, i was too… sanjiv was flying off that night. needed to spend time with him. anyways.. he’s gone off now… there’s christmas hopefully. he said he’ll come for my christmas production. i thought about him, of equally yolk and of the qualities that i wanted in a man. it seems easy to be with him… but when i prayed, that’s the name that came to my mind. oh wel… trust God for the best and surrender it to Him. He’ll show me sooner or later who He has in store for me… the best of course.

it was such a beautiful event at a beautiful place. i love klpac… i think it’s just simply beautiful but i never thought i would have so much fun during the event. i’m so blessed to have been part of it. and also being part of the nominee attendant meant me meeeting the people that i have spoken on the phone. no 5 remembered, he was the only that did. and he’s better looking in person and ever so charming. well, things got better than i thought when we managed to talk for awhile and it led to us exchaning numbers… now that i didn’t expect. i mean what’s a cute, popular guy like him asking my number for. oerhaps, he would genuinely like to keep in touch like all friends do… yup that must be it. anyways, i think we all did a great job i fell. it was a sucessful event i must say… and we’ll see whethe he calls. doesn’t mean he takes my number he would call…

it was an awesome convocation at Cherating. the place, the evnt everything. i loved it all and it was during this time that i reall felt close to papa and mamma. there was also an opportunity for them to meet my friends and their parents and also to hear good things from elton and sanjeetha. praise God! hope whatever doubts that they had as been cleared.

as i was putting on my robe and and mortarboard was when it all finally sank in…. I’M GRADUATING!!!! i can’t thank God enough for this… seriously. i thought this day would never come.

ok… me gots to go now since the sandwhich i had is now nicely settled in my stomach! :) 

if you down with my Jesus out your hands in the air and say Yeah!

Yea…. this song wass playing in my head this morning when i was on the train on my way to work… i’m just grateful that everything is quite peaceful now at work as compared to before. did you know that i actually had suffered some post stress thingy? yea…. almost fainted, pale, weak, extreme fatigue ( i slept for 13 hours lah. thank God i was off the next day), loss of appetite and well yea just no mood lah to do anything. but it’s better now praise God! at least i know what i’m doing and feel more confident about it. and i’ve got and amazing teammate and an awesome boss! thank God! He really does answer prayers. and thanks steven for that encouraging email.

moving on, i went back for Raya. it was a fun drive back. never put 4 crazy ppl in the car… well actually just never put yan yi and me togetherlah… quite the explosive! we laughed all the way back… and confirm dy, the 2 of us based on our commentaries can work with RTM if they need extras for the Raya season. dan pemandu PFG, walaupun sudah jadi aunty jagung dan prestasi memandu anda sungguh menghampakan, kami di RTM masih menyayangi anda!!! maaf zahir dan batin! but most of all i’ll never forget the moment when papa said that in many ways he is proud of me…

and this weekend is my convo!!!! woohoo! but i’ll miss church again!:( i miss you guys!! i’m going to cherating babe!!! so looking forward to it! hope to put up some pictures and also tell you all about it in the next posting…

till then, reality sinks in… but am excited for what’s going on now and what i sense God has for me. i was talking to jo mama last night and i can say this to you, God answers your deepest desires. He does! i sense that with me too… and i’m excitedly, prayerfully, waiting for evry blessing of His. honestly, scared about one of those things that i sense alsolah but i choose to live a surrendered life.

signing off…for now…

well, it has been pretty laid back so far since the ‘crisis’. during that time it was kind of hard for me. kept kincing myself about it and blamed myself. but was told to not be that way… seriously there was no point in that anyway. but yea, there were good times as well. i loved Family Day, the re-opening of blook, and just well hanging out with friends. parents came down for the weekend as well so i got spend time with them. i think they are getting more and more curious about church which is good. noticed that they do ask a lot of questions and pa even went looking for the place. of course he refused to come in when i asked him but i pray that they will soon one day. other than that… well nothing much has bee going on and yes… i’m just couldn’ be bothered about facebook for now. too much is happening in there and i have no time to layan everything that’s been going on.

finally… the long awaited breakthrough arrived. praise the Lord. I’M GRADUATING!!!! finally!!! God had a hand in this from day one, it’s so obvious from my results. and i’m really looking forward for my graudation day, as it’s so special.. it’ll be in cherating and i love the idea of having dinner by the beach and also the beach party as well.

jay and ps andy are getting married this weekend. they are such a great couple. and also we had such a good time bullying jay at her bridal shower. just thought that she looked so cute in her whole outfit.

and yes work… i pray that God takes over the situations that i am in. i’m a little nervous with whatever that’s going on right now… i just want to shine for Him and glorify His name. God, i pray that you help me in this situation. You be in control, use me as Your vessel and give me strength and wisdom to shine and glorify our name. Help me Lord in every aspect of my workplace.

it’s 9.30 pm and i just completed work at the expense of missing vision casting though now just waiting for dash to finish and am going to collect results at raj’s place…. RESULTS!!! i claim that pass dear Lord, i need this breakthrough!! i’ve been waiting for it patiently… yeah right!! i really went through a lot of sdtretching this pass couple of days. thank God my boss thinks i’m doing a good job. ok dash just called… gtg.

wow… i’ve come a long way. it’s just be really interesting. anyway, am going trhourh stretching right now… there are times when i could just scream. but often i just turn away and burst out into tears. i mean we all go through financial difficulties i guess but yea… this was bad. and then just when i thought i had worked it all out, my contacts tore and you know i cried. sounds like me being a bit of a loser but all of sudden tears just started rolling down and of all the moments when i was talking to this bro. a bit mempersiasueykan but later received a very sweet surprise from this bro. he has been so naughty but that time he really got to me. yea, naughty and nice at the same time. haven’t met anyone quite like him but it’s good to have friends like him around.

of course there is the other brother whom i got the sharp side of. i mean, coming from him i shouldn’t have been surprised. it’s just that well, i see more than that in him and i was just being myself for crying out loud. but apparently i should just keep my mouth shut when his around. but you know what hurt me the most, he snapped back to normal when he saw janet and the rest and talks normally to everybody but me. i’ve thought about it for the longest time ever, but i’ve can’t think of anything that could have made him mad. last night, i got too upset about this and when i sat in the car i even had ears in my eyes. a bit the drama i know but it’s true… that’s how i feel….

anyways, i need to go back to my work now….